Like lots of people, I love lists. Every night I make a list of jobs for the next day. Then spend said next day chasing about, ticking them off. Only I never do tick them all off. So each night, I move the undone items onto the next day’s list. And repeat.
I’m always focused on what
hasn't been done. Always trying to catch up. Always feeling not quite good enough.
But an interesting thing happened last week.
Besides being a list-lover, I’m also a bit of a health nut. And Tuesday and Wednesday last week had been set aside for a periodic fast and cleanse. Knowing I might have slightly less energy than usual, I’d kept my diary light and deliberately put only three or four jobs on Tuesday’s to-do list. And - this is the important bit -
made a mental note to be gentle on myself.
The result? I had a lovely Tuesday! I pottered about all day long feeling relaxed and peaceful and very much as if I was ’in the right place’. Yet - extraordinarily - when I looked back at the end of the day, I had actually accomplished lots. Probably as much as in a normal, frenetic day.
In fact, without a list to go by, it seemed I’d managed to make progress in almost every area of my life. Here’s just some of what I achieved:
Website: created and put up a blog post; and had a meeting about techy, behind-the-scenes stuff with my hosting company
Studio: cleaned the windows, met with a removal man, arranged for someone to check the boiler
Piano Classes: paid some cheques into the bank and designed an advert
Retreat (yes, Dixon Hill Retreats are coming!): gathered blackberries to make jam for retreat breakfast!
Friends and Family: sent e-mails, left blog comments, bought and posted a birthday card and present, had phone conversations - including arranging a lunch date with one friend and a visit to another
Housework: laundry and a big pile of ironing
Other chores: took car to car wash, cleaned out my handbag, bought bird seed
De-cluttering: cleared one small space in my study (it’s a start!)
Health: did the fast and cleanse I set out to do
I’d also managed to listen to a radio play (one of my favourite treats), take Joss for a couple of long walks on the moors, and shoot some photographs.
And yet the whole day felt so leisurely - like a day off. No beating myself up. No chasing my tail.
Lesson learned! From now on, I’m scheduling frequent ‘gentle days’.